I don't know you but, your dialog is of a person who have had trouble and I just got worried for you. I must say that when looking up into the sky and listening to the birds and thinking about God did you see the cloud roll by and heard the song that the birds sang did you get a response for God. Did He tell you what you wanted to hear. I know that He told you that He loves you. And that He sent His son Jesus Christ to die for you and I.
