I have alot on my mind but I don't have alot of close friends to talk to.  I am trying to become  closer to God and his son but sometimes  I get easily distracted and frustrated.
I have issues in my life that make me depressed and i am trying to get over them and go on with my life the best that I can but I get a sad feeling in th pit of my chest that doesn't seem to go away.
Alot has happened to me in the last two years and I have a lot of questions about why things go wrong in people's lives. Â Since my dad died a whole string of bad things have happened to me. i know it doesn't have anythng to do with my father's death but I have had a lot of health problems this year. In 2007 I split from my fiance but we still own th house together and he's with someone else.
I haven't been able to find anybody to go out with and I don't know if I am ready to start over with someone new. I am just lonely and single.
I feel bad because I don't feel like I accomplished very much in my life. I don't have a husband or children. And I am on disability so I cant work without ruining my benefits.
I also tried to get on with my life and rented an apartment but it didn't workout and on top of that i got really sick with my Bi-Polar disorder twice this summer and had a reaction to the medication they gave m to treat my illness.
