when it's all said and done, a poem i wrote
it wasn't supposed to be this way
if you only knew what happened that day
i know you blame me for it all
BUT I WASN'T THE ONE WHO MADE THE CALL
with all the screaming, yelling and cussing
she cried mommy please do something
i know the hate you feel is enormous
but that is what the enemy wants for us
dont you remember all the promises you made
and then you just threw them all away
it reminds me of empty promises from my father
and you are all too familiar with that one
now look at where we are
seemingly two whole worlds apart
you feel one way and i the other
i dont know how to put it together
you are not the only one that hurts
but you seem to think that only yours matters
i dont try to do things to you that hurt
but it seems to me that is your purpose
to hurt me more and her too
dont you see what this is going to do
the day will come when you will look back
and wish that it could all be taken back
it's not over yet and i haven't given up
i know that you have, but it's not over yet
all the times i have said til death do us part
i still believe that in my heart
you are not divorced no matter how much you say it
and it doesnt even change it
you stayed so mad at me
when you felt i wouldn't stick by you
but i never left you there; maybe absent in body
but present in heart, soul and mind
i hope this finds you in some sort of comfort
i dont wish the feeling we have upon you
every night we hold each other crying
and that to us is just like dying
she wakes up crying all the time
i had another nightmare, hold me tonight
he is taking me away
and he is the one who sealed your fate
now you are the one who is running away
you are who you hate, that's what you had to say
if it is over according to you
just know we didn't walk when it's all through
Sarah Gray
11/21/06
