Today begins a quest that I could not shrug aside. It is a quest that i could not ignore.Usually it is reserved for the traditional new years eve, where I reflect over my life and attempt to implement ideas to make the coming year a closer walk with the Lord.
Every year of my known life in christ has seen my ideas peeter out mid way through the January month. But not this year...not this time. This time an unidentified power within (I cannot say it is God and I cannot say it is me) is compelling me to devote myself initially for 21 days of this calender month. As i agreed this in my Spirit I was aware that Feb has only 28 days and 28 is a good number for me as i lived for many years under that house number.
Even as I write, the well known verse.."it is the goodness of God which leads us to repentance" tugs my heart. Reminding me that this is in fact the Lords doing and not my intelectual abilities.
What do I hope to achieve? Only God knows! What I do know is that this will be an inspiration to those like me who are going through extreme periods of spiritual darkness.
Those of us who have followed the Lord and have allowed situations of our past to harden us and nullify our hearing and dampen our faith. I believe my 28 day journey will awake the faith within to once again stand were Men have feared to tread.
I dare to go into the enemies camp and return all that was stolen and more. For I do not just want my goods but also seventy times seven for my trouble.
once again I will know what it means to gird up the loins of my mind and allow God full control.
Working in sales drained me of devotional time,but now the lord has seen fit that all excuses and obstacles has been removed and a response is needed from me.
After many years of praying for God to lead us to a Church, we have finally found one that we can call our home. Now it is imperative that I be filled with the Spirit as to assist there and in my home, as I continue to pray for the Lord to lead me Career wise.
I do not know how this journey will be walked.My days must however include an overload of prayer, worship, exercise and study. I will simply take a step out of the boat and trust that day by day God will influence my mind to do the things he wants and when he wants.
