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Today I have the blues. I am starting to get really depressed and I don't know how to stop it from happening. I went out on my own by myself to rent an apartment and it all fell apart.
My finances are a mess and i don't know if I should get legal help for my problems. I have been praying off and on all day long but it is going to take a while before I feel any better. I know it isn't God's fault. It's my fault for trusting the wrong man with my heart. I loved him but I had to let him go because he loves someone else. He had a choice to make and he chose her over me. I have been trying to get on with my life the best way that I can but it is very hard when you're used to being a couple but suddenly you have to make all kinds of decisions for yourself.
My name is Paula Lynn Kutch and I am related to Daniel Boone on my fathers side of the family.
He is my great,great,great,great,great grandfather. Â I am the 7th generation of Daniel Boone.
I am Also one-quarter Cheyenne American Indian Through his lineage. According to what my According to My grandmother Maxine Faatz Kutch-Buckland One of Daniel Boone's son's married and Indian girl. I think his name was Israel Boone but I am not sure. Any how my grandmother told me that she remember a picture of am Indian woman that might be related to me.
She also told me that Daniel Boone's sons went to Norway. They went there by ship and Changed the spelling of their name from Boone to Booney. She believes that she has some Norweigen in her ancestry but I can't confirm or deny it.
Then comes Christian Boone(Booney),Then Frederick Charles Booney who would be my Great Grandfather ran away from my Grandmother's Mother and started a new family somewhere else  but I don't know where.
Then there is my father Paul Kutch(no middle name) He died on November 9, 2006.
The Death certificate said cardiac arrest and he had been battling long illness for almost 8 years. He signed a Do not rescue order because that is what he wanted.
88 people showed up at his viewing. And I still love and miss my father very much.
Tags: My Heritage By Paula Kutch
Last night I was in rare form. after 10 years of being subjected to 10 years of physical,emotional, and psychological abuse I finally left my abuser. 10 Years of crawling,creeping and crying. It is finished and I am over it! Thank God for the freedom that Jesus Christ gives me Halleluia Amen.
Tags: Please Forgive Me Jesus Amen
I'm thinking about writing a book about my dad to honor his memory. I know that writing a book is hard work but I feel I am emotionally ready to handle my grief. My dad wouldn't want me to cry over him. That's not what he would want at all. Â I am going to go through my pictures and get a couple new notebooks and get to writing.
Tags: About Writing A Book About My Dad
I miss my dad. My dad died about 2 years ago. He was very sick and very brave. He never let on how sick he was . My dad and I were very close. I'm a daddy's girl and always will be. I have been thinking about him alot lately especially when Father's Day is coming up I remember all of the good times we had. He knew how to make me laugh like no one else. I miss everything about him. I miss they plaid shirts he used to wear and when I was a girl scout he took me around to sell cookies in the middle of January. Once I fell on the I ice on my back and he told me "not to be laying down on the job." I remember all of the pets he let us keep on the farm and at our house even though he didn't like cats.
I remember all of his hunting and fishing trips when I was younger he used to take me fishing and I enjoyed it. I even got to row the boat once. He was patient with me.
I miss my dad and I wish I could ask him for his advice. He died in November of 2006. I've been thinking about him alot lately and wonder what he would say to me if he were here. Â I know it's wishful thinking and I don't believe in Psychics. I think they're all fake.
I'm going through a difficult time in my life right now. I am adjusting going from being a couple with my ex-fiance to living life on my own again and it isn't easy. Â I really am trying to start my life over at age 37 and it is a challenge. Â I managed to get an apartment but I am having trouble financially and I lost my job.
I am originally from Pennsylvania but I don't want to return to Pennsylvania to live with my mom because it would be a constant reminder that my dad is gone. I know he's in heaven.
Is it selfish to miss him? I'm sure he's having a great time in Heaven but I wish he were still here.
Tags: I Wish I Could Ask Him For His Advice
Thank God I made it through another week. I had a job but lost it. I wasn't confident in my ability to do the job. So I am going to try something else.
I worked my butt off for two days and things were just not going my way and I got fired. I hate when that happens but at least I know that I can look for something that I am better suited for.
I pray that everything will work out and that I will have a new job to replace the one I just lost.
Tags: Thank God I Made It Through Another Week
I had a nice weekend. I spent the morning watching Saturday cartoons while cleaning my apartment during commercial breaks and colored some of my fashion designs. Then I went to do some business where I used to live. The weather was nice today. I went to visit the pets and they were happy to see me and I enjoyed playing with them. After a while I went home and ate my supper and relaxed and did some art work. It was a pleasant day, Thank you God.
Tags: I'm In A Good Mood
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