Gentleness, Patience, Strength, Love, Mercy, Hope, Light, Truth, Worship, and Praise are all the things i'm bearing and learning from my first Job. Yeap! I got a job a week after graduation. It's good to be back with Jesus Christ. I'm blessed to be in His arms even though it's been hard to try to please everyone, I know i'm pleasing God. I'm in a lot of pressure at work and home. I really just don't want to be distracted anymore from ex-boyfriends and dudes in general. God has been tugging at my heart to be Obedient to do what he says in the way I eat, sleep, dress, talk, and act toward Him and His people (everyone that comes in my path).
I'm so thankful for everything I have. I look at toliet paper and different way. Yeap that's right. I am so thankful for my family no matter how hard they can be or how i get annoyed by them hahaha..I love them still. It's been a true blessing to be out and working and serving God in this way.
I know God is pleased and Glorified. For the first time I am not selfish..I am still not perfect but wow! It's beautiful..God is beautiful...I hope to keep praying, focusing on God, and seeking Him through my rough nights at work.
I love everyone you know who you are for your prayers all the sisters i've met on myspace and at school. Thank you for your encouragement.
Mylee I love you for taking care of me and being the mom in my life. I love you for every little thing you do for me without complaning or winning. I love you for caring for me, watching my back, giving me advice, praying for me allllllllll the time, having faith in me, making fun of me, making life worth living, loving JESUS, keeping me on track with Jesus, and the Family. I love you for being strong and telling me what to do hahah and telling me the truth even when it hurts. I appreciate you hun.
He speaks too!
2Timothy 2:15 "Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth".
Life is the fullest when you find yourself knit to the Lord-this is what my Pastor said:D Seek God's Heart through the midst of the Trial. God gives you a promise everyday. Christ has called us to love everyone-families, friends, co-workers, boss, neighbors, and the people in the whole world. Christ perfers for us to Love Him first!
I think that people really don't believe anything until they are in it. That was what i have been going through. God has been showing me a lot about my heart just over and over again. God just wants me to be emptied out. HAHA for real. I've questioned a lot of things that have taken in my path and it should not be questioned because it's all layed out, and planned by our Heavenly Father Jesus Christ. I cannot tell you how to live, or what to do but to show you Mercy and God's Grace. I never even knew what Grace ment until last week sunday at church. My pastor greatfully repeats himself just about every sunday ahha cuz you know people forget i'm one of them. HAHA well it was exciting because i now know that Grace is something given to you when you don't deserve it. I have God's Love, Mercy, and Patience. To experience it a-m-a-z-i-n-g!!! Hee-hee. Last week was my graduation and it was a rough week i tell ya. But I began to see God moving and heard Him again. If your not a christian this will be confusing to you. Sorry! Anyway God really does speak. This is something that i will always run back to and read so get ready and read it. below are some great things the Lord jesus christ wants to speak to you. I love you and So does Christ! haha smile:D
This is from a book I forgot the name so soory! haha "I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who Live, but Christ lives in Me; and the life which I now live in the Flesh I live by Faith in the Son of God, Who loved me and gave Himself for me"-Galatians 2:20
Oh My child give me your heart, for out of it issues life, My hand is upon you, and I will keep you in all places whereever you go I am your God, and I am your Father and I will care for you and provide for You according to all that you need. I will be at your side, ready to help you whenever you call on me. I am NOT unmindful of yuor needs, and My concern is for you. (see how beautiful and amazing God is guys??)
You do not need to carry your own load, for i will be happy to help you carry it and to bear you up, as well. You do not walk alone or meet any situation alone, for I am with you, and I will give you wisdom and strength, and My blessing shall be yours. Keep your heart set on Me and your affections on things above; for I cannot bless you Unless you ask Me. And I cannot answer If you do not call to Me. Do not wait to Feel worthy, For No one is worthy of My blessings. My GRACE by passes your short comings, and I give yo My children because they ask of ME and Because I LOVE THEM; I do not love one more than another. I give most liberally to those who ask the most of ME, for I love to have You depend one ME.
This is why the Spirit WITHIN You Cries, "Abba Father", As your Father, I anticpate your dependence on Me. You may Mature and outgrow your Dependence on your Human parents but as My child, You will never "outgrow Your spiritual Sonship, nor will you I ever cast you out to rely on your own resources, not even when you become a parent. Indeed, then you will more fully appreciate My feelings toward you.
You will understand the Love a Father has for His child and experience the desire to care for and provide; then you will know more fully how much I love you how ready I am to HElP You, and How AVAILABLE I am to Counsel with you and give you My support. Heaven Resources are at your command, and YOu need never want, So long as I am your Sheperd. Do not think that since i know all about you, YOU may experience the release of an open heart, and the fellowship of a friend. As you Open your heart to Me, I will come to you. As you speak to Me, I will speak to you, As you reveal yourself to Me, I will reveal Myself to you. This is a Law of life. there must be action to bring REACTION. there must be a question to bring an answer. There must be an expression of Love and Confidence on the Part of one person to arouse a corresponding reason in another person.
Never Pressume My presence. Never assume that knowing your need, I will automatically supply. Ask, and It shall be given, Call upon Me, and I will answer You. Tell me that you Love Me, and I will make your Heart know in a very Real Way , My LOVE for you and my nearness, and you shall never feel alone. Welcome Me into Your heart, and The more you sense my presence within You, the more you will feel at Home no matter where you may be. Forget anything Else, but Never forget This. I LOVE YOU my CHILD.
Jesus Loves you whereever you are. Stand with Him my friends:D
I pray this blesses and Encourages You.
Guys this totally spoke to me. I kept holding onto my own loads and became depressed about it, dwelled on it and didn't focus on it. On my graduation I got into a huge fight with my brother and it hurt me a lot because he is not a christian.Also because I went against my God Jesus I was filled with emptiness, guilt and Hurt. God still Loves me and my brother. No matter how much my brother hates God, God will never turn away from Him. I began to ask myself why i cursed at him and yelled at him. I also began to ask myself about where my faith was, my heart, and life. I thought this day was going to be the worst. I was torn because my heart was in the same place. I once was like my brother (depressed, scared, alone, and in bondage most of all not saved) I Forgave my brother and Thank God and Praise God for the trial because I recongized that I have a short temper and bad attitude. I wasn't respecting my brother and expected so much from Him. It was a harsh reality. I'm excited though because God is Good he can deliver people from anger, and All things. I began to get sick physically and I was like okay God your slowing me down. I began to start over, God allows U-turns it doesn't mean go make bad choices, but to Leave behind your old rags, and run with Christ. Keep your eyes on the Lord people! You see i am a new creation in Christ. I was pushing God away for so long and tried to take things (my life) into my own hands. Before all i knew was anger but God is working in my heart and Life through my temper and attitude because it separated me from My love relationship with God, the Holy Spirit, and Jesus Christ.
IN CHRIST ALONE your Faithful Sister IN CHRIST--kay:D
Back yes! i'm back in Milwaukee the cold weather boo-whoo. I was surrounded by mountains gentle brothers in christ and God's Love. It was an amazing trip. God opened my eyes and showed me how patient he really is. I was at my lowest and God still had his hands on me.
Man i dunno what's wrong with me sometimes. I don't know how my husband will deal with me hahaha. Sometimes I'm just so hard on myself that i begin to condemn myself. "Therefore There is No condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus"-Romans 8:1 I love this verse.
For so long i kept asking, dwelling about how God can use me because such a "sinner". After talking to my Gospel Coach Mr. Lobely He told me that God allows us to mature in our faith and walk with Him, God is pleased with us it doesn't mean we go and make bad choices but We are under His hands, and He has a perfect plan for me. Mr. Lobely also said you know God will help you control your temper. and begin to just mo;d your heart. So true man! I will miss Mr. Lobely's laugh, dance moves, and fatherly love. Man i was like awe wow God you totally spoke to me through Mr. Lobely. I thank God for Mr.Lobely
Everytime i go out of town God always shows me something new. I am really really really ready to change. I don't want to lean on the old rags of my past I hate it, of course everyone does. My sister and I spent a lot of time fellowshipping, encouraging eachother about Faith in Jesus and waiting on Him for Every Single thing in our lives.
I sure do miss Calvary Chapel Chino Valley and the christian clothing store in one of the malls. Man that is soo awesome never seen anything like that before. I really missed being at Bible study too. But yea i'm learning how to surrender more and God is truly teaching me how to be more gentle, loving, and hopeful in Christ.
Calvary Chapel Bible College in Murrieta Hot Springs was awesome too we had a tour of our own:D It was cool. The college doesn't even look like a college it looks like a frigin' resort man! beautiful i wanna go back so bad man! There is so much to do there but God has me where he wants me. I truly believe God has me and my sister here in Milwaukee so we can share His Gospel to the Lost. We need more witnessing here:D
The open Air preaching was cool too, they had christians ask questions and people had the chance to ask questions about God, jesus, and other stuff like Hell, Heaven, evolution, and many more things people wonder about. We got to see a little bit of it. It was nice meeting my sister's friends too. California aaah! miss it still hahaha Went to the beach that same night:D My ears poped so much on the air plane and in the car weird, just weird.
Anyways i'm stuck with a lot of essays and cold weather and quietness again. I have the Lord so it's all good:D
Okay i'm gonna finish writing my essay now
Jesus Bless you all
In Christ-kay:D
