Yes, tonight I am actually in the best state I have been in for a while. I am happy, and I am not worrying about anything. Church today helped me to be calmer, and helped me to once again see how strong God is. God is going to help me with all these horrible things I have been dealing with.
So tonight, I am going to avoid that topic, and just be happy and not bring myself down. Tonight I am just going to tell you all thank you, and wish you all well. Please excuse the fact I am constantly adding a blog, I am sure the Home page is going to be full of my blog entries eventually. I just need somewhere to go sometimes.
I'll write another entry tomorrow, Lord willing :)
~Brandon (The Hunk)
I think calm after the storm is proper for this blog title if you read my past blog. It was a storm in my heart. It was loud, and unbearable for me. I think I went to bed in the worst shape I have for a long time. I could go into great detail of comparing my last blog entry to a storm, but I am not going to. I am too sleepy.
At the moment, God has just helped me be more calm today. I never turned the news on, and I never read the People magazine. I stayed away from all possible interactions with something that could depress me. God looked out for me as I went about my day, and I am very glad He did. I managed to not think to much about all the stuff that has been plaguing me, and I as read last nights blog I got to thinking about it.
I am worried about one of my current friends, I think this friend is sinking deep into the sin of homosexuality. All I know to do is pray for this friend because don't want to seem like I am trying to change them, even though I sorta want to. Where is a friend that feels the same way about all this stuff? I sure could use one right now...
Today I prayed a lot, and I am more than ready to head to church in the morning. I need to go to church, and be in a holier place.
Is my job getting to me? Nah!
~Brandon (The Hunk)
Wow, it has been a long time since I stopped in here. I have been meaning to come back here for a while, but tonight I just need to come on because I have to write my feelings down.
So much news has been coming out recently about homosexuality. Whether the preacher with the meth and prostitute, or the dispute for gay rights. All of this stuff has been troubling me emotionally.
I will admit, homosexualiy is something I have never even thought about. I was 11 when I discovered that men dated men and women dated women. (I was always a late bloomer when it came to that sort of thing.) The thought of homosexuality was something that was always frowned upon in my house, and I to this day hate this sin in particular.
One reason I hate it so much is the movie "Philidelphia" with Tom Hanks. If you haven't seen it, check out the summary on Google. When I saw that guy, who was an open homosexual, suffer with AIDS, I was automatically drawn to banish homosexuality from my life.
Another reason I hate homosexuality so much is the Biblical warrants against it. They are clearly called sin in Leviticus and Romans. The Bible also says for us to flee sin. This brings me to my next point.
If the Bible instructs us to flee sin, and homosexuality is a sin, what is wrong with me not wanting to associate with homosexuals? I don't think there is anything wrong with that, actually. But is wanting to avoid them racisim?
I was accused by a close friend of mine that I was being racist to homosexuals since I didn't want to associate with them. I think that is crap, but I am old-fashion so I can never know.
I have been told that two of my friends from public school are gay, not bi, fully gay. They were people that 7 years ago, I actually loved as friends. But now, I don't even know them, and in my opinion I shouldn't.
I am not saying that I wouldn't help a homosexual find his or her way to Christ, but I don't wanna be friends with one. "Jesus loves the person, but Jesus hates the sin." I have to keep repeating that in my head. I am wondering if Jesus would be friends with one, if one wanted to be friends with him. I guess he would, but I don't even know. It is never recorded that Jesus ever had interaction with homosexuals, except when he codemned their sins. So I don't know right now.
Maybe this situation is one, I just need to stay on the fence about, and not make a decision to do or not do right now. I am praying for God's wisdom right now, and I hope you will pray for me. It might be easy for you to just diagnos me, but this time I need God to show me the way.
And oh yeah, bisexuality is wrong, and no one can deny that. Jesus didn't say for us to worship no idols, and then let us worship the sun. If Jesus say homosexuality is wrong, then bisexuality is wrong.
ONE MAN + ONE WOMEN = GOD'S WAY OF LOVE OR THE HIGHWAY 2 HELL!
^I saw that on the internet, and I thought it would be a nice inscription for my blog.
Please pray for me, I beg!
~Brandon (The Hunk)
