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I sit in the dark

Crying my heart out

I just want the voice to go away

It just keeps saying

Your worthless

Your stupid

No one cares

You’ll be nothing

Just end it all

Make it easier on yourself

Kill yourself

Do it now…

It goes on and on

For hours upon hours

It just wont stop

I take a knife

And press it against my wrist

I hold it there

Thinking a million to one

The voices keep getting louder and louder

Faster and faster

All I want them is to go away

I stop for a brief moment

And hear a small voice

A voice that sounds like rushing water

In the distance

I focus on that voice

I close my eyes

And see a hand reaching out to me

And the voice saying

Come to me

Come to me

That’s all it was saying

Come to me

I only had two options

Life or Death

It was in my hands now

Take my life

Or live

I reached out to the hand

The closer I came to it

The more I drew to the voice

The less the had heard the other voice

I reached out and grabbed the hand

As soon as I did that

It all went away

Everything was peaceful

Everything was better

No more voiced trying to make me kill myself

Just love

That’s all I felt

Was love

Love like never before

Love that I knew it could only be from one person

I give my life to him

I give it all to him

He saved me

And he is my Lord

He is my King of Kings

He is my father

I love him with all my heart and soul

Come to him and He will do the same for you

He will carry you through the storm

He will take your problems and carry them for you

Just give it all to him

Do not hold back

And He will exalt you

Step out in faith, So far only God can get you through it. That is what he is wanting, only he can bring you through it, so he can shine. So no one can say a mortal man did it. So they know that God did it. Step out and use the power he gave you! He gave you power over all in this world and in hell. Do not fear, the lord is your shepherd, and you shall not fear. Take back what is yours, Do not let Satan take your prosper. God wants you to be rich and to prosper but Satan will steal it away. Use the power that God gave you and take it back and do not let Satan take it again. Stand strong and know the Lord will carry you through any situation that comes your way. He knows your heart and he will give you your desires, only if you stay in the word, study it, and do what it says. Do them three things and you prosper. God loves you, and he will never forsake you. Lay it all down, give it all up, let him mold you to what he wants you to me. Let him do that and he will exalt you.

Has anyone ever told you that God Loves you and that He has a wonderful plan for you life? I have real quick but important question to ask you. If you were to die this very second, do you know for sure, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you would go to Heaven. Let me quickly share with you what the Holy Bible reads. It reads "for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God" and "for wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord" The Bible also reads "for whosever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved". And you're a "whosoever" right? Of course you are; all of us are. I'm going to say a quick prayer for you. Lord, bless his/her ,and his/her family with a healthy lives. Jesus make yourself real to him/her heart. If h/she has not received Jesus Christ as her/her Lord and Savior I pray he/she will do so now.

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Life

 

There this rich 15 year old boy

His 16^th birthday is coming up

And he has been getting all these plans ready

He thought his life was perfect

A week before his birthday

He gets a call

He thinks it’s the party planers

It was the hospital

His mother was in a car accident

She was in ICU

It’s like his life came to stop

He rushes to hospital

While he was driving it seems like its taking eternity to get there

Finally he got there

He ran through the hospital

Looking franticly for ICU

He found it

He ran to the desk, asking for his mother

The nurse directed him to her room

The nurse opened the door

He seen her laying there

She has a breathing tube down her throat

The boy broke down into tears

He ran and gave her a hug

She was still sleeping from the drugs

The nurse informed him that she has surgery tomorrow

The boy stayed next to his mother all night

He start to dose off

He got woke up suddenly

The nurses and doctor rushed in the room

Code Blue, one of them yelled

They huddled around his mother

He seen her heart monitor flat lined

The staff raced to get her stable again

They tried over and over

But it was to late

He stood in the corner crying

He watched his mother die

Right there in front of him

They asked him, do you want to say any last things to her

He walked close and gave her a hug and said I love u mom

While the tears ran down his face

He walked out crying

The nurse followed him and said, can we call anyone

The boy said no, she was all he had

He thought his life was over

His dad left him when he was 5

His aunt and uncle died 2 years earlier

And now his mother

Everything she had goes to him

He’s a 15 year old millionaire

But he didn’t care

He lost his mother a week before his 16^th birthday

He went back home

Walked in the double doors and fell to his knees

He realized his mother was gone

Gone forever

She is never coming back

He thinks how can I life with myself

 I have no one now

The boy tries to go to sleep

But cant

He wakes up crying every time

Every time he tries to sleep

He has a dream of him standing there in his mother’s ICU room

While she was dieing in front of him

So the next day the boy got in his car

And went a bought drugs

He bought crystal myth

He thought this would help

He used it twice and got addicted

He was hooked

He was a millionaire but he used most of that money on drugs

So now what he had left

He bought in bulk and sold it to people

The cops never thought it was him

One night he was laying down and fell asleep

He woke up to a notice

He thought someone was breaking in

But there at the foot of his bed

Was his mother, crying

He rubbed his eyes and thought it was the drugs still

But it was his mother, crying

He got up close to her and tried to give her a hug

But he fell off the bed

His mother said, why are you doing this

Your breaking my heart son

Yes, I know I am gone in the flesh

But I’m always with you in your heart

I’ve seen everything you’ve been doing

Why son, Why…

Why are you throwing your life away like this

Your never alone

I’m always right here with you

Please son stop

His mother started to disappear

By the time she was gone

The boy was on his knees crying

I’m sorry mom, I’m sorry

That’s all he could say was

I’m sorry mom

He took all the drugs and burned them

Out of all this

The boy learned an important lesion

Even if you lose the closest person to you in the flesh

They will always be with you in your heart

 

 

 

Keep on Fighting

 

Don’t give up

No matter what comes your way

How bad it seems

Remember there is always someone out there worse than you

Life is tough

Just be ready for whatever comes your way

Expect the unexpected 

Whatever comes your way

Its for a reason

You go through one hard time

You make it through

You look back

And see how much stronger it made you

Life has challenges for us

There not made to kill us

There made for make us stronger

The only way they will kill you

Is if you let it

There is always a way out

You may not see it at the time

Keep going through it

And you will

There is always a light at the end of the tunnel

Remember you don’t have to go through it alone

Someone will be right there with you

You don’t have to walk through the storm alone

So don’t ever give up whatever comes your way

Always remember you’ll get through it

And in the end

You’ll be ten times stronger

Get Ready

 

The world is coming to an end soon

So Get Ready

For the skies to split

The sound of trumpets playing

The Rain of Heaven to fall down

So Get Ready

To see the man Riding down from the clouds

Wearing white

On a white house

With a double bladed sword in his mouth

Followed by angels

All you can do

Is fall to your knees

Weeping your soul out

The time is too late to repent

REPENT NOW!

I tell you again,

Repent Now

The time is Now

It is coming

I warn you

Get Ready for this day

It is approaching quickly

Time is short

Repent

I will tell you one more time

Repent your sins

Make your robes white,

Wash your sins away

Ask him into your heart

The time is short

It is happening

Not much time now

All Coming to an end

Repent your sins

Heaven

Or

Hell

Either, Or

Your choice

The time is coming

Rise up and rejoice in the glory of the Lord

The day is coming

I warn you

Repent and Give the Lord your heart

Give him all

Nothing is yours, all is his

Repent your sins and ask him into your heart

If not, You shall burn in the sulfuric pits of hell

I warn you, hell is no place for man

So dark can’t even see your hand in front of your face

Demons, Beast, Burning, Torturing

Pain and Suffering

I warn you

No words can describe how horrible Hell is

REPENT!

 

 

All Alone

All alone
In the dark
Crying my soul out
Wondering why people make fun of me
Why people pick on me
Why don’t people like me for who I am
Try to be so kind and caring
But get slapped down
Made fun of
No way out
But one way
Death
Death is the only way out
Taking the Razor blade, cutting my wrist
Blood
More and more gush out why I go deeper
Feeling no pain, just thinking
This is the only way out
Feeling faint now
Vision going blurry
Everything goes black
Heard a faint voice say,
Why are you doing this
I couldn’t answer
Again I heard,
Why are you doing this
I couldn’t reply
All I could do is weep
Fall to my knees
This was the only way out
You have to understand
I had no choice
I couldn’t see any other way out
All people do is make fun of me
I was all alone
At the end of my ropes
Couldn’t take anymore
One person game into my mind
She was always there for me
She told me I could call her whenever I needed her
But I didn’t
I couldn’t put this on her shoulder
It was to big
I did the right choice by not calling her
The voice went away
I seen her standing there at in my house
Crying her heart out,
with my mom hugging her tight
I heard her say, Why did he do this
Why didn’t he call me
The ambulance pulled the limp body away
She asked can I see him one last time
She pulled the covers away from his hand
Stuck a folded up piece of paper in his hand
Pulled the cover back over him,
And they hulled him away
She fell to her knees, crying
Yelling why, why, why
The vision was going away,
No! No! No!
I want to live again, I yelled
The voice came back again
You have one last chance
But if you screw this up
You will not get another
In the ambulance the boy was riding along
And started to move slowly again
He felt something in his hands,
His wrist burn
He yells
The ambulance races to the hospital
They notify his parents and the girl
They rush to the hospital
The girl runs in and kisses him on the cheek
The whole time in the hospital
She never left his side for anything
The boy can never say again
I’m all Alone

The Beating

I hear the belt coming through each belt loop
I tremble in fear as I hear the foot steps come closer
They grow louder and louder
Until I hear bang, bang, bang
I ran to the door to lock it
Open the door now!
I fell backwards in terror
I knew I was going to get beat worse
But for once I was hopping he would just go away
I quiver in the corner
Why I hear him cracking the belt through the air
Open this door now or I’m going to break it down
I start to cry
Don’t beat me this once, please
Bang
Please don’t
Bang
I started to beg repeatedly
Please don’t, no!
Crack!
I fell to the floor after the blow to my back
 Crack, Crack 
Over and Over
Please Stop, I beg you, please
Crack
I lay there on the floor taking the blows to my back
Get up stupid worthless child
I lay there weeping with gashes in my back bleeding
He grabs my hair and picks me up
I scream in pain
He backs hands me across the face
The slap makes me fall to my knees
He crack the belt over my face one time
My face starts to gush blood
There is a blood puddle around me
After all time the pain goes away
My back burns but no feeling
Nothing but anger
Stupid child
And he walks out
I start to cry more in anger
I walk in the bathroom and look at the gashes in my back
My back is covered in blood
I fall to my knees wondering
Why does he do this to me
What did I do to deserver this
All this pain
I see no other way out
I cut my wrist deep into the vein
Blood gushes out
 I feel faint and lay down
I lay there crying
Then a man appeared
Eyes like fire
Wearing a white robe
Reached out and picked me up
He held me tight to him
All the pain went away
He said come with me
And never feel pain again
The girl wrote one last thing to her family
It read,
I am gone
Gone forever
I’m not in pain anymore
I’m full of love
Do not cry that I am gone
You will see me again
I went with the man with fire in his eye
She put the note next her body
She was gone
3 minutes later her mom walked in
Found her daughter on the floor with blood all around her
See seen the note and read it
Fell to her knees crying
Her daughter was gone forever
Never being able to come back
Cherish what you have
You don’t know what you really have until you loose it