Loss, Its something all human beings from the beginning of time have experienced.
I walk in faith and through this faith I have
gained some perspective on loss, and what it
Does to the soul, if you let it.
Negative things, like Crying at the drop of the hat. Wishing things wouldn't change..not accepting
change as it comes. envy of others who have what
You lost, and in your opinion not appreciating it.
What it boils down to is judgment.
Positive things, Like crying, looking at the blessing, coping and not being so selfish.
And it could always be worse.
Last June, I lost my very best friend, Lisa
she had just turned 39 on the 13th of June 2006
And 6 days later...she died.
We had moved to different states....but always
loved each other and always fell back into our
friendship when we got together, she was also
my sister in law.. she left 4 beautiful girls
a loving husband, sister, mother and father
And tons of step sisters and brothers. The most
poignant part of this story was she was about to
become a Grandmother, Her grandson was born
10 days after her death.
Fathers'Day was the last day i saw her.. we had
a wonderful day, talking and laughing and
remembering good times, I was concerned
about her blood pressure...she had issues for
10 yrs on and off. She was fit and trim
blonde brown eyed beauty.. so healthy on the outside...sick on the inside....At 39 she died
Of a massive heart attack. Gone just like that.
Lost.
Loss can come in different ways
My daughter and youngest son, Shannon and Scott
Great kids, never any trouble.....lived lives
of baseball and softball, school activities,
good friends, some moved away but they still kept
in contact with, both graduated High school,
Shannon on to Art School, Moved to NYC 3 yrs ago
I missed her every single day. worried about her
But how could I not let her spread her wings?
We just visited her too, and I have peace of mind
I see how she is now, grown up and responsible.
While I lost her, she found herself.
Just the way its supposed to happen. God is Good.
Scott decided to move to Seattle Washington
Friends out there, a girl. Loss.
He told me he was going, i was stunned, scared
And didn't want him to go. He was my baby, how
Could he take care of himself without me?
He told me he was depressed here. all his friends
have families now, are in college, moved away
He wanted a new life, new experiences, how could I stop that. Gods will I cant interrupt that.
Could I? No. Loss.
Like it or not.......its part of life
and what you gain is maybe the knowledge that
we are not possessions, Children are not something
you own, they are borrowed....They come into
your life..through your body...to become something
Great, of not so great. Its totally out of your hands.
You raise them, hope you do it well. and even well meaning. good parents
Can fail, Personal responsibility comes into play with all humans.
Loss.
You wonder how much more you can take.
Then your beloved dog of 12 yrs passes away,
and you just shake your head and yell and
almost demand answers, If you believe in God
You ask why God? Why all this loss. What is the
Lesson? IM still waiting for that message
for that whisper that will turn into a loud
Voice that will reveal itself to me.
I guess I should really thank God for up until
now....46 yrs . The personal Loss is coming now. Im older
now....maybe I can handle it. Maybe i can
cope with it, knowing that im not alone in
My grief, in my anger, in my envy in my sin.
I think part of the lesson is Appreciation.
Part could be acceptance. That growing older
I just might have time for those things that
I sacrificed. To create children who value
themselves, Have the courage to spread their
Wings and do it on their own, for a change.
We all have a purpose in our lives. A plan
That was mapped out for us. Sure there are
different paths, Free will guide you
And you will make mistakes. That's good.
Its good to make mistakes, The lesson is sometimes
in that mistake. Once your learn from it.
You have fulfilled Gods Will for you.
Loss can be okay.
And I will be okay too.