Today I don't know what to feel I  am very confused with my emotions. I did the best I could with what i have but it is slowly being taken away from me . Last year my fiance broke up with my and found someone else amnd even after ayear has past I still get emotonal.  It's that I want him back but I am very sad that i lost the relationship I once had with him. i know God is there  watching everything. But it hurts some much. I keep wondering what I did to deserve  such treatment but I may never know.

Sometimes calling out to God helps and sometimes it doesn't .  I know that Jesus saved my from my sins but I don't know what to do about my life and being on my own again.  I 'm tired of relationsjhips that omycause me pain.

There 's got to be some light at thend of the tunnel. But I don't think  my depression will clear.