02/19/2007 18:41:13

hey all im officially ovr him well 99%. im doing way better! i have been turning to God a ot worldly stuff that the devil continues to tempt me w/. tanx for all your prayers cause they have worked! love ya bekah

01/15/2007 20:09:33

I'm sorry if you are talking about Jon. He is like one of my best friends and I promise you he did not mean to hurt you. It is just there was alot of problems with a guy. Aaron, He kept threatening Jon. But I don't jnow the rest. Sorry that it did not work out.

12/10/2006 16:55:35

My name is Christian. I am 27 years old and am from NJ. If you want to contact me, please e-mail me at Psycho4Yeshua@yahoo.com and I will get back to you. This is something that the Holy Spirit led me to write and I would like to share with you:
“Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us”. It’s part of our Lord’s Prayer. When He was teaching us to pray, that was a part of it. We say it ALL the time. God has convicted me in my own life about what it means, and I would like to share it with you. This is hard for me, because I am going to be admitting my own flaws, but I believe, that in order for God to help me, I have to share this with you. It’s kind of a healing process. So just bear with me.
Let’s start at the beginning, so that you get the depth of how far all this goes. I am not making excuses; I just want to let you feel what I am feeling as it were. This girl that was with, we will call her Jennifer. Jennifer and I were best friends for 6 years. We laughed together, we cried together, we shared all of our secrets together. When my grandfather, who I was VERY close with died, she was there for me. Her dad died a couple years ago and I was there for her. She cried on my shoulder same way I had hers. I could sit here all day and tell you all we had been through together. We had genuine love and respect for eachother. I once told her that we had been through hell and back together, and she told me that we had not been THROUGH hell together, we owned property together in hell with all the stuff we had been through together. We had been through it all. There was nothing, or so we thought, that we hadn’t been through.
So she was my best friend in the world, we had been through it all, so we decided that we would start dating. I ended up falling for her HARD. We dated for about 6 months before I decided to start talking with her about marriage. I went out, with butterflies not just in my stomach, but in my heart, and got her the ring that she had a dream about a few years earlier. I was so excited because I found a ring that looked exactly like the one in the dream that she told me about. So, right on the spot I bought it, I was not letting that slip through my fingers.
So maybe a month or so later we are in the car on the way to work and I turn to her and said “I really love you” and she looked at me like I was an alien. She said “I know that…I know how much you love me”. And right then and there, pulled the ring out and asked her to marry me. She bawled when she saw the ring and she said yes. We were so happy and everything was going really good.
Then mistake number one happened. A few days later we made love before marriage. After that everything fell apart. A few days later we started fighting non-stop. You see, there was a friend of the family who came over to the house a lot, and she admitted to me that she liked him. She had once, in the past even kissed him. She told me I had nothing to worry about, but every time he came over, (which was pretty much ever weekend) I got this blackness and very much dislike toward him. I almost felt like I had to compete with him.
Maybe about a week later he told her that he had feelings for her. When she told me this, I thought, well she loves me, and although that was the case, she told me that she wanted to go to the movies with him just to be sure that she didn’t have feelings for him. She told me that if they came back holding hands that she didn’t want me to complain about it. Well to say the least, this did not make me too happy. She never did go to the movies with him, but he still came over A LOT.
It ended up stressing me out so much that I ended up having heart palpitations and had to be admitted to the hospital. I was not doing real well there for a day or so. I was going crazy because I wanted to go be with her and hold her and tell her that I loved her. She had to work and after she got out of work, when I was in the hospital, she would come to see me. The one day she came and he (the guy that she wanted to go to the movies with) came with her. He said he wanted to see how I was doing. I am not going to tell you what was running through my head. You can fill in the blanks. I was as nice as I could be until they left and then I called her and just told her that I thought it was REALLY inappropriate for him to come with her. That conversation did not go well. Both of us said pretty harsh things to eachother. She called me later that night and was still VERY angry with me and told me that she was going to spend some time alone with him. I cried so hard and apologized for everything I had said to her previously (I was not innocent either, I said some REAL bad things), but she told me that she was going to just spend time with him.
Two days later they released me from the hospital and we sat down and talked. I told her I could feel in my heart that something happened between them. She came out and told me that she had kissed him, but she said she did it, not because she wanted to, but she did it out of spite. I took that okay, until she told me that she wasn’t sure who she wanted to be with. I told her that I forgave her and would give her time to think. Well, he continued to come over quite frequently and would have pet names for her like sweet heart and other things like that.
I got to the point where I didn’t want to be with her, but I didn’t want to lose my best friend. I told her I was leaving and going back to live with my parents. I have known this girl for almost 7 years at this point, and she cried harder that night than I ever known anyone could cry in real life. I told her that I didn’t want to be there anymore. It was too much. I told her that we could try to work things out and maybe by Christmas we could work something out, but I just needed a break. It was too much for my heart. I sat there and held her all night long while she just layed on the bathroom floor and wept like I’ve never seen in my life.
Well, after I moved back home, we were talking for a while. We even talked about possibly getting back together. Then it happened. She called me one night and she was talking to me about a guy at work that she thought was cute. I don’t know what happened in my brain, but I flipped. I lost all control over my mouth, my brain had left me. I sat there for about 10 min and cussed her out, anything that I could think of to hurt her, I said. I was out of control.
That night, I lost my best friend of almost 7 years. I can try to rationalize it in my head and say I was right to get angry. I had every right to. But then you go to God’s Word and it talks about how anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God and how if you don’t forgive others, God won’t forgive you. That’s what I had in my heart that night was a spirit of anger and unforgivness. And sadly enough, still do to a certain extent. You know that when you are in pain and you are hurting you call certain people who you know will agree with you that you had the right to get mad, you had the right, you were hurt, but see what it all comes down to is what does the Word say? The Word says “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.” It asks God to forgive us the same way we forgive others. God of Jacob, (Israel) have mercy on us all in Jesus name.