I am having one of those days. It seems like God is
ministering to me through everything.First I had a dream that i had blood all over me and i couldn't wash it off and everyone was amazed. We couldn't figure out why i had all this on me.We didn't know where it was comeing from or why..When i woke up i started thinking about this and wondered what i had missed, see lately i been feeling confused and just not needed.. But i feel like that was Gods way of telling me i have been washed in his blood and i am needed.God led me to jerimiah chapter 1. which says he has knew us from before we were formed in the belly and santified us.and he has ordained us all to be prophets of him and go to all nations..You know that really spoke to me.. My 11 yr old was resently called to preach. I had told him along time ago i felt like i was but people said that weman couldn't do that.But God Says I CAN! He says ordained all of us to be prophets including me.LAter on in the day I spoke to a friend And God toched me through simple words. Then i spoke to my aunt and God confomed alot of things.
God amazes me everyday..Its only 2:45 pm so i am kinda anxious about what is next my kids will be home soon and they always share things with me..I can;t help but be excited. I just want to thank Jesus for giving his life for me He could of walked away but he didn't. thank you God for your son
I haven't wrote in a while i been real busy with my family and church.But something has came up that I just had to share.i am so in love with God ..Everyday I think of all He has done for my family and me.Over the last few month my husbands bussiness has been expanding I give all praise to God for taking care of us.I have been able to stay at home and take care of what i need to.My youngest son which is 5 is wonderful and a mericial, see when i found out i was pregnet with him i wasn't ready for another and the thought of abortion crossed my mind, but then God showed me in a dream my childs blood on my hands. So i never went to the apt.. I had him and now God has blessed me with a child that loves God so much.He is a blessing,The word has been in him for only a short 2 yrs but he knows prayer changes lifes.. He knows at the age of 5 that the sick can have hands laid on them to be prayed over and that Jesus took the strips on his back for us to be healed.He knows what is right and wrong.It amazes me to see him lay his little hands on people and speek the word over people.
My oldest son which is 11 has always been wonderful also. always makes honor roll and never gets in to trouble. He just started middle school and its been hard for me having one start kindergarten and one in middle. I was going to take them out and home school them but then my oldest told me about how 3 or 4 kids at school has started praying with him at lunch..
So i left him in public school.God has made him a light which we all are, but him at such a young age,he has been called to preach the word.. yesterday he woke up crying and told me he knew that is what God wants him to do . He is scared because he has the fear of God in him and knows that he must fulfil the word that was spoke to him.I told him that before I even knew the word that I knew he was going to change lifes, see his real father died and it was just us me and him for 6 yrs.I didn't have his fathers family to support me cause they really didn't want to see him they said he reminds them of his father.Its been 9 yrs since we saw any of them ,I know one day they will see him and see that God has brought a Broken child up to be a mighty man of God and it may change their hearts.So not only has my children grew and been already called to do Gods work but even my husband and I have to.My husband was called to preach when we first started to go to church and now is coming up to where i see its time to fulfill it ,see i know even though you have the calling sometimes you have to wait for the right time.His and my childrens time is now..My relationship with God has grew so much.I can hear him more clear and feel his presence more and more everyday.I was called a long time ago to teach the word of God but turned away from it because someone at that time told me weman can't do that. But i see now that i can. SO i know God has plans for my family. His mercy and wonderful grace that has brought us all from being broken to molding us to what he wants us to be.I would of never of thought this would happen all we have been thru but God has made a way to use us all. and i Love him so much and thank him for all the wonderful blessing he has put in our lives.
It seems like I would have someone to talk to.I am married I have 2 wonderful kids and I also watch 3 kids during the day.So why is it that i feel alone. When i try talking to my husband he doesn't hear me or he thinks i am starting an argument. My kids, bless their hearts, don't need to know my promblems.It isn't even about me having promblems sometimes i just want to talk about God!!But then i get told thats all i talk about is saving the world..I have friends but they have their on thing. So most of the time i just talk to myself. My husband told me that is was ok as long as i didn't answer myself..lol!! But if i don't who will?I do everything I can to make my family happy.It just don't seem like it is working. So i need advice.. And as i thought about this , this morning i asked myself who was i going to talk to..I feel like even God is tired of listening to me..But then when i think about it i know HE is STILL HERE.. And he is the only one that has ever been there for me..So why do i even think about how alone i feel when I'm not!!And why am i even writing this?
