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ON SEPTEMBER OF 1999,I REMEMBER BEING IN MY BED BESIDE MY CHILDRENS FATHER AND MY SON(OF 3 MONTHS OLD AT THAT TIME)AND I WAS SITTING LOOKING AT THEM AT SLEEP,BUT WITH I SORROW IN MY HEART ASKING MY SELF:WHY AM I NOT HAPPY?IF I HAVE MY BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND THEIR DAD,HOUSE ,FOOD,EVERYTHING ONE NEEDS,BUT YET I FEEL SO EMPTY.I REMEMBER HOW A COUPLES OF DAYS BEFORE THAT NIGHT,MY SISTER IN LAW HAD INVITED ME TO HER HOUSE FOR MY BROTHERS BIRTHDAY IN WHICH I WAS TO PREPARE THE MEAL,ANYWAYS,I REMEMBER TELLING MY SISTER-IN-LAW I WAS STEPPING OUTSIDE TO SMOKE A CIGARRETE,SO I WENT TO THE PORCH,TOOK OUT THE CIGARRETE LIGHT IT,THEN I SMOKE A FEW TIMES,BUT OUT OF NO WHERE I HEARD I VOICE ASKING ME,IF THE LORD COMES RIGHT NOW WHERE DO YOU THINK YOULL GO,IMMEDIATLY MY KNEES STARRED SHAKING,I WAS IN FEAR,TREMBLING,I PUT OFF THE CIGARRETE,STEARS CAME DONW MY EYES,I FELT SO SICK,I WENT INSIDE I TOLD MY SISTER-IN-LAW;PLEASE TAKE ME HOME,I DONT FEEL OK.WHEN I GOT HOME I KEPT ON CRYING FOR THREE DAYS,UNTIL THAT VERY NIGHT AT MY BED,WHEN I REALIZE,I HAD STARRED A CONVERSATION WITH GOD,I TOLD THE LORD,IF THIS IS TRULLY YOU WHOM I AM MISSING,IF YOU ARE THE VOID THAT NEEDS TO BE FILL IN MY HEART;TOMMOROW LEAD ME TO YOU,SHOW ME THE WAY,AND I REMEMBER CRYING WITHOUT STOPPING.BUT OVER AND OVER I WILL SAY IF IS YOU CALLING ME,IF IS YOU WHO I NEED TO FILL THIS EMPTYNESS SHOW ME THE WAY.THE VERY NEXT MORNING ON A SATURDAY(SUMMER MORNING)I WAS CLEANING THE HOUSE,FIXING BREAKFAST FOR MY HUSBAND AND CHILDREN,YET I FOUND MY SELF STILL TALKING TO GOD SAYING ,TODAY SHOW ME TODAY,YOU ARE WHO I NEED TO BE COMPLETE,TO BE HAPPY SHOW ME THE WAY.I REMEMBER SAYING I DONT KNOW HOW, OR WHERE TO GO,BUT I KNOW YOU WILL SHOW ME THE WAY.IT WAS AROUND 5 O`CLOCK THAT EVENING AND AM STILL CRYING BUT TO MY SELF,I WOULDNT ALLOWED THE CHILDREN OR THEIR FATHER SEE ME LIKE THAT,WHEN MY OLDEST DAUGHTER SAYS;MOM WE NEVER GO OUT,WE ALWAYS INSIDE,CAN WE PLEASE GO OUT FOR I WALK.AND MY DAUGHTER NEVER BEFORE HAD ASK ME THAT,SO OF COURSE IMMEDIATLY INSIDE ME I TOLD THE LORD,THIS IS YOU,AND IF IS REALLY YOU USING MY DAUGHTER TO SHOW ME THE WAY,SHE WILL SAY WHICH WAY I MUST GO,BUT I KNOW IS YOU.WE GOT READY,MY THREE DAUGHTERS AND THE BABY-BOY IN THE CARRIEGE,SO WE ARE STANDING OUTSIDE IN FRONT OF OUR BUILDING,WHEN INSIDE OF ME I SAYD;LORD PLEASE NOW SHOW ME THE WAY,I ASK MY DAUGHTER SHANNY WHICH WAY SHOULD WE GO AND SHE SAID TO THE RIGHT STRAIGHT DONW TO THE RIGHT!SO WE STARRED WALKING TO MY RIGHT,WE WALK ONE BLOCK,TWO BLOCKS AND RIGHT AT THE CORNER OF THE THIRD BLOCK WE WALK TO A PENTECOSTAL CHURCH,THEY HAD A SERVICE OUTDOORS,IMMEDIATLY I KNEW GOD TOOK US THERE,BECAUSE AS THE PASTOR OF THAT CHURCH KEPT SPEAKING ABOUT THE LORD AND HIS SACRIFICE FOR ME,AND THEN HE SPOKE ABOUT BEING EMPTY WITHOUT GOD,FEELING LONELY WITHOUT GOD,I KEPT ON CRYING,THE SERVICE NOW FINISH AND I WANTED TO HEAR MORE AND MORE,I HEARD THE PASTOR SAYING COME BACK TOMMOROW SERVICE WILL CONTINUE TO OUTDOORS.I WAS SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT,I COULDNY WAIT FOR THE NEXT DAY TO COME,SO THAT I CAN HERE MORE ABOUT THE LORD.SO I WENT BACK THE SECOND DAY,AND THE LORD KEPT MINISTRING TO MY LIFE,THE THIRD DAY I REMEMBER I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE,WHEN THE PASTOR ASK WHO WANTS TO RECIEVE CHRIST AS YOUR PERSONAL SAVIOR I RAN TO THE FRONT IN TEARS,I SAID I WILL ACCEPT HIM ,I NEED HIM,I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM,FROM INTHAT VERY MOMENT ZORAIDA WASNT THE SAME,I FELT A PEACE,I FELT LIKE A KNEW PERSON IN SIDE OF ME,I STOP SMOKING,I STOP DRINKING,IWAS SO HAPPY WITHOUT THOSE THINGS.AND THOUGH MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY CHILDRENS FATHER CAME TO AN END,CAUSE YOU SEE GOD DELIVER ME FROM LIVING IN LIES,AND CONSTANTLY FIGHTS AND SORROW AND PAIN.NOW GOD SHOWED ME THAT HE WAS WITH ME,I DIDNT NEED TO FEAR.SO I BECAME A MEMBER OF THAT SAME CHURCH AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT VERY SAME CHURCH ONE OF MY BROTHERS,A NEPHEW AND MY MOTHER USE TO GO TO.INTHAT SAME YEAR MY MOM HAD WENT BACK TO HER COUNTRY,MY BROTHER MOVE OUT AND MY NEPHEW WENT BACK TO HIS MOM.ALL OF THEM BACKSLIDED,BUT I KNOW THEY WILL COME BACK,THATS A PROMISE FROM THE LORD!SO THATS HOW THE LORD MADE HIS CALLING TO ME THROUGH HIS HOLY SPIRIT!THANK YOU JESUS YOU NOT ONLY SHOW ME THE WAY,YOU ARE THE TRUTH,THE LIFE AND THE WAY TO THE FATHER IN HEAVEN,THAKYOU JESUS FOR FORGIVING MY SINS,FOR SAVING ME!I ADORE YOU OH LORD OF MY SALVATION!
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